Recently I did something I’d never done before: Re-open a closed lead.
About a month ago I ended it with a girl I really enjoyed hanging out with and, in turn, fucking. While she’s not drop-dead gorgeous (probably about a 5-6, and it depends entirely on your scale), her personality made up for a lot and she likes to get fucked just about however I please — and suck my dick while I play video games (which I coined that time, ‘Blaze Wins,’ and she agreed wholeheartedly).
What led me to end it with her was that I got the feeling she wanted more out of the relationship than what I offered (conversation and hard dick). Even though she didn’t explicitly say it, her action showed otherwise. Once I told her I was done, she took it a bit hard and told me she never wanted a relationship out of the situation, but wanted to know she was more to me than just a fuck (since it made her feel like a slut). I spoke a little more with her, then got a clean break.
Fast forward about a month, and for some reason, she popped back in my mind. She went on a vacation to a city that I know really well and whenever someone goes to that city, I get excited and want to hear about their time since I often tell them a few places I enjoyed (like I did with her). I re-engaged and talked for a bit with no clear idea of what I wanted out of it more than just a good conversation.
Then one week later, we got together for a few games of pool. Once again I found myself enjoying her company and I’ll probably put her back in the rotation. It’s always good to have a sure thing, especially one that you can tell wants to please.
I’m a bit worried this whole ‘re-open a closed lead’ could lead me down a tough path of remembering old flings or girls with whom I messed things up. Before I do it again, I’ll give it some thought as to whether or not I’d want to share my life with that person or not. If so, I’ll shoot them a text and test the waters. Why not?